How do you get your creativity back?

As you can tell, I have been in more then a little bit of a creative slump lately. What little I have had, has gone towards my store, cause hey, I still wanna shop even if I’m not blogging.

But the question is, how do you get it back? Or how do you keep it going, even tho it’s kind of waning away?

I used to be pretty good at this. I kept going, kept taking pictures and posting even tho I wasn’t feeling it 100%. But now I’m not so sure how to anymore.

I’ve missed blogging and taking pictures so, so much. It is a great creative outlet for me, plus I learn a lot in Photoshop while I fiddle with the picture. Want a certain effect I just can’t perfect? Well then I just look up tutorials and practice til I get it.

Ohwell, here is a picture I took a few weeks back.

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All beauty destroyed

Oh..well..hi there.

I..um..have been away for a while. Quite a while even. Sorry about that, I have just been so out of inspiration it’s not even funny. But, it is halloween, and I guess that kinda kicked something back into drive, so here I am. With a picture even.

 

Skin: -Glam Affair – Artemis
Hair: MINA – Jezebeth – Blood (Uber)
Eyes: PMD – Demonic eyes (Don’t Panic)
Makeup: PMD – Blasfemi
Body/hands: Slink
Claws: .: ZcZ :. Tipped Cap Claws – Black
Horns: :[Plastik]:-Tyrant Queen

and a happy World Goth Day to you

So, as I was sat here, minding my own business, fiddling with dinner…Well alright, not so much sat, as singing along loudly to Painkiller in the kitchen as my chicken was cooking, but still..minding my own business in relative peace and quiet (trust me, I suck at singing, so I very rarely sing along that loudly), the though just struck me. Today..today is World Goth Day. And that my friends, that’s a big thing. At least for me it is.

I grew up being the odd one out. The one people found it easy to hurl insults at. The one we can mock because she doesn’t look like us.

You know how it is, cause you’ve read my earlier posts about this very things. I was the one to mock, to insult, to shame, to..well you just take your pick, I was the one. I had cars going past me as I was just walking alone home, and they found it fitting to hurl insults at me..at best. If it was just insults it was a good day. Then there were the beer-cans, or whatever they had laying around in the car they felt fitting to sacrifice to throw at me because I was different. Because I didn’t conform to the standard. Because I didn’t look like them. Because I wore all black and listened to bands they didn’t.

That shit got old pretty fast, for me. Once I grew some self-confidence, and started believing in myself, and felt secure in who I was..and who I am, I started ignoring them. The day I heard one of their cars pass by me, vicious insults following them, and I felt like “Yep, this is me and I feel fucking great. What are you gonna do about it?”, is the day I felt like I could do whatever I wanted to do. Honestly. That day was one of the best days in my life. I felt so strong, so secure in myself..I could do whatever the fuck I wanted to do, and you, you guys had absolutely nothing to do with me. You can never bring me down again..never. Not for looking different. Not for listening to something else then what was in at the time. Nothing. You cant bring me down ever again.

All of this ^ is even more fun..at least to me, considering the fact I wasn’t that much of a goth, or, well, anything stand-outish, really. I was a metal-head, looking more like a goth-metal chick, sure, but nothing too “absurd”. I dressed in all black, with the makeup to go. Funny indeed, considering the fact Sweden is most famous for its Death Metal scene. Hell, we have quite a few good Black Metal bands too. But noo, the “in” people can’t accept that. I was different and I sure didn’t fit into their mold of normality, so I guess that was offensive enough. Or something. I don’t know, I gave up trying to figure out their point long ago.

Anywho, I think thats enough of me and my RL rants. I’ve lived through being bullied to hell and back, and I survived. That’s more then I can say for some. I won’t go into it now, because by now you all now what World Goth Fair, and the Sophie Lancaster foundation is for.

Just..don’t judge based on appearance. That “weirdo” you see? Might just become your best friend. She/he might just be an awesome person..or a troubled person..or just someone expressing what she/he is by the way they dress. Don’t judge, just appreciate the diversity in us all.

So, all that personal stuff said and out of the way *coughs* I know I can get pretty long-winded, and sorry, but I had to say it.

Now, it is World Goth Day, which means, World Goth Fair finally has the officially licensed shirts up for sale in gachas on all the sims. I hit the gachas hard on the Cursed sim (In the Gothika mobile unit, in case you get lost), and got exactly what I was after. I looove Covenant, and I am so happy they got in touch with the team and offered up their logo for use (Tack som fan killar, jag uppskattar det verkligen). I’ve listened to them for so many years, and I love their music. Keep in mind, Im a metal-head, so Im not that much in the know of all the good goth bands the org-team managed to fish up, but considering the fact even I have heard of a lot of them means these bands are teh awesomesauce, and you should totally drop by and play the gachas to get them.

How often can you buy official, licensed merch in SL, really? Not that often to be honest, cause 99% is usually just stolen from google images, so here is your shot at getting some actual, approved shirts.

Skin: [Pink Fuel] Sora <Alabaster> – Special Edition
Hair: Magika [01] Rewind
Eyes: PMD – Era
Lipstripe: PMD – Bane
Collar: GALLACTIC . Enyo collar . Black (World Goth Fair)
Shirt: WGF 2014 womens band hoodie . Covenant .  (World Goth Fair)
Skirt: :[Plastik]:- Raedra Skirt:// Black
Hands: Slink AvEnhance Hands Female
Nailpolish: PMD – Nail Hud – Itsy Bitsy Spider (World Goth Fair)

Walk with me

 

Feels good to finally have two seconds to spare and sit down and just do a few pictures on a location that isn’t the home sim. Big thank you to pancake of Renoobed who showed me this sim. I was only able to explore a little corner of it, but I will be going back.

There are so many events going on right now and I haven’t even visited half of the ones I’ve wanted to, and even more events coming up. Ahwell, a few of my recent favourites are featured in this post, that is Fantasy Faire and We <3 Roleplay.

If you havent been yet, you really should. We<3RP opened just a few days ago, so you still have time, but Fantasy Faire closes in just a few days.

 

 

Skin: [PF] Drow <Dusk> v1.0 (We <3 RolePlay)
Hair: TRUTH HAIR Lotus – variety
Eyes: PMD – Era
Makeup: PMD – Aliruin (Fantasy Faire)
Horns: :[Plastik]:-Vynn Horns:// Ridge (Fantasy Faire)
Piercings: [ni.Ju] Devil’s Gangway Piercing
Dress: [ SAKIDE ] Kadea Outfit Black/Purple (Fantasy Faire)
Pants, pauldrons and gloves: [Gauze] Fenrir (Fantasy Faire)
Feet: Slink Womens Medium Barefeet Rigged
Shoes: [L.Warwick] Ibis -Platform Heels- Noir
Poses: Diesel works and Exposeur
Location: H22O

and the moonlight…

I feel like such a horrible person every time I blog something and I have forgotten to grab the credits for whoever did the poses. Seriously you guys! Poses are what makes our pictures come to life, to speak, to convey an emotion, and here I am being a sucky blogger forgetting to note down which poses I used. I apologize for this so very much and hope you will forgive me one of these days..all I can say I do believe at least one of these poses is from Diesel Works..the other..hm..might be Glitterati, might be Bang, might be Exposeur, as those are the ones I usually go for.

I also, in parts, blame my airheadedness as of late on being _very_ busy irl with helping out finishing up a cover for a band of some dear friends of mine. Yes, those are my hands (no judging, they are actually quite nice and small irl >.> The keys are just big)  I did model for that cover, as well as help, quite a lot in fact, to finish up the Photoshop work on that cover. Give it a click if you are even remotely interested in Black Metal or Death Metal. I do like it, and so far, the band has gotten some sweet feedback and reviews.

Now, enough about that and my RL, back to SL.

I was originally planning on blogging some other pictures today, as I’ve had those lying around on the harddrive for what feels like a week now..but meh, I kinda fell in love with this look, so here we are. Plus, I am notoriously lazy, and these pictures only took like 10 minutes to edit. And by edit I mean, add some blur to even out the reflection on the water. Seriously, LL? When are we going to get good reflections working? I know I can get decent enough, but that would require me to make my images waaay larger, and when I do that, I get the square bug. That square bug is getting old by now, and I mean Mesozoic-era old.

Skin: [Pink Fuel] Sora <Alabaster> – Special Edition (FutureWave – now closed event)
Hair: TRUTH HAIR Maisy – black & whites
Eyes: .ID. Flare / The Arcade / Purple-Pink (previous Arcade) and PMD – Era
Collar: :[Plastik]:-FLF- Morrigan Outfit
Dress: [ SAKIDE ] Satine Gown Red (Serafilms, until the 31:st)
Feet and hands: Slink AvEnhance
Nailpolish: PMD – Lined
Shoes: [L.Warwick] Ibis -Platform Heels- Noir

Valkyria

So, I finally had some spare time to sit down a fiddle around a bit more with that hair tutorial I mentioned in my previous post. It’s not perfect, but it’s getting there I think, and this hair by Exile from the Arcade proved to be perfect to experiment on.

Now, onto some unedited pics for once. I only added a little blur to the first one, and adjusted colours on the other, but it’s pretty much as seen in SL. This armour and headband from this round of We <3 RolePlay together made a sort of Valkyrie look, in a fantasy kind of way, and I must say I like it.

Skin: [Pink Fuel] Sora <Alabaster> – Special Edition (Futurewave, now closed)
Hair: Exile::Rain or Shine: 6. Dark Blonde (The Arcade)
Eyes: PMD – Era (Futurewave, now closed)
Headband: =Kio= Rising Head Band – We <3 RP
Armour: PFC~War Kitten – We <3 RP
Necklace: Cobrahive – Beloved Thor
Feet and hands: Slink Avatar Enhancments
Shoes: Slink Lulu Stiletto (Addon) Black
Sword: [EZ] Wrath’s Conviction

Did you miss me?

While I was gone? Yeah, no, I doubt that. In parts because Kinu picked up my slack and blogged some stuff while I wasn’t blogging. Awesome pictures at that <3 She is getting so good. But also in parts because, hey, why should you care about me, right? I’m just yet another fashion bloggers among hundreds. I don’t make anything to stand out. I’m not one of those top 5 most important bloggers. I know this. And to be quite honest, I am not striving for it either.

I love my followers, I really do. I blog for you guys..but mostly, I blog for myself. Blogging isn’t just that for me. I don’t just blog. I experiment, I try new things, I sit through hours and hours of tutorials to pic up on new things. Some of those new things I pick up on end up on the blog, sure, some of those new things I learned end up incorporated into my store and the creations I make there.

Sure, some pictures may be “boring” or “standard” fashion blogging. I recognize that, and to be honest, there is nothing wrong with that either. Some days I just want to show off what I am wearing, without spending an hour finding a fitting location for the outfit, then another hour finding the exact right pose, then another two to four hours in photoshop editing that picture…and you know what? That’s fine. I seriously admire bloggers who can blog every day, day in and day out, just doing good pictures with whatever they are wearing.

But now..I feel like that just isn’t enough. Not for me. I want to really pour myself into my images. Just really stuff my personality into them. If that means I will do less posts? So be it.

 

I can live with that. Hell, I can even live with doing some of those “standard” or “boring” posts, just to show off what I am wearing..cause seriously, some days I just want to show of what I am wearing, cause I am fucking hawt :> Simple as that.

So yeah, I guess what I am saying, from now on I shall try to put more “me” into my pictures..good or bad. Mostly bad I think, cause I’m not that interesting to start with :P

Be it just me rambling about my day irl, my emotions, the music I am listening to, what I did in SL or whatnot, I feel like just blogging about what I am wearing isn’t enough anymore. I want to evolve. Second Life has done so much for me over the years. I have been here for over seven years by now, closing in on eight, and I can’t see myself leaving any time soon.

In Second Life I really discovered the creative side in me. I discovered new music, I made new friends, it helped form my creative side…and that creative side is what keeps me blogging. If I can’t keep developing my creative side, I have no idea what I would do with myself, seriously. Setting up pictures and tinkering away with them in Photoshop is almost like therapy to me. I love it.

So, there you have it, ramblings from me. What I want to say with all of this I do not know yet. I might just start getting even more creative, which I’ve wanted to do for a long while now..I might just start talking more, opening up more…taking more creative pictures,,,do more tutorials to share what I’ve learnt. I dunno really, I just felt I had to say this..and this is part of the reason I haven’t blogged in a while. I over-think everything I do and say, it’s just part of my nature.

Whatever happens, I’m sure I’ll enjoy it.

 

aaand now for the credits of wtf Im wearing, which I guess is what you all are after, not my rambling.

Skin: Glam Affair – Candy skin – Europa 14 (The Arcade Gacha)
Hair: [LeLutka]-LIVELY hair/Dark Grayscale
Eyes: PMD – Erina (Released soon..somewhere <.> keep your eyes open *grins*)
Makeup: PMD – Darkside
Eyelashes: PMD – The skully lashes 1
Chest piercing: .:ellabella:. Ysandre Blogger Pack (We <3 RP)
Top: …::: Scrub :::… Just a Little Black Leather (Stalkerazzi)
Panties: [ SAKIDE ] Slide/Slide ’em off Panties FU Black
Stockings: BAX Ornament Leggings Bands
Thigh highs/shoes: [ SAKIDE ] Willful Velvet Thighs&Pumps Black
Hands: Slink AvEnhance Hands Female (Updated..no seriously, go update if you havent already!)
Nail appliers: PMD – Black and White
Tattoo: ~Cannibelle~ Efa Tattoo (Most probably no longer available)